Two Years

Today is the two year anniversary of my blog.  Hard to believe two years ago I was a new struggling stepmom, who lived with her boyfriend, and was very insecure about her place in the mix and with the dreaded PEG.  A lot has changed over those past two years, while other components have remained the same.  Either way I have grown as a person, as a wife, and as a stepmom.  I have learned like most things in life there will always be good days and there will be bad days.  Its how you deal with those bad days that makes you a happier wife and stepmom, as well as a sane one! HA

A lot has happened in two years, Hubbs and I got married, we created a life, we suffered a great loss, and we have grown together throughout all of this.  I love Hubbs more than anything in this world, he really is my better half.  I could not have found a better man to share my life with, and be the father of our baby girl who is set to arrive any day over the next couple of weeks.  I am blessed to have my family, my friends, and my amazing husband I get to wake up next to every morning.

Recent events have reminded me just how precious life is, and I don't want to spend my time trying to fix or control things that are completely out of my control.  Some things have remained the same, PEG is still a nutcase, and I question her decisions as a mother, but I have learned to tune her out as much as possible and it has made my life easier.  My relationship with Hubbs is that much stronger.  It was a long hard road, and on occasion I still struggle but I have a much better understanding of what I can handle and when I need to take a step back and let Hubbs make his own decisions regarding the son.

We started our summer visit last weekend with the son, and while its never completely perfect, and we are all currently adjusting to each other, it is an absolute joy to have him in our house.  I feel so much relief when he is with us, and it really does make our lives feel more complete with him there.  I can only hope he realizes how much we love him, and how much we love being with him.  We will be expanding our little family of 3 to 4 in the next two weeks, and its hard to imagine what it will feel like to be the "Mom".  To have a child with no strings attached, and no one we have to share her with.  I am really looking forward to Peanuts arrival, and trying to enjoy these last couple of weeks of pregnancy. 

We have suffered great sadness over the loss of my MIL, but I know time will help heal us, although we will never stop missing her or noticing her absence.  I hope the birth of our daughter sheds some joy and happiness, and gives us the break from all the sadness. 

Our life is truly blessed, and I look forward to all the many things to come.  This blog has been a saving grace for me numerous times, I have met so many wonderful women out there, and have received such great advice.  I hope I have several more blog anniversaries to celebrate and look forward to what the future holds.  Sometimes its is easy to take the future for granted, we always expect there will be a tomorrow, and unfortunately that is not guaranteed.  What we can hope and pray for, are many wonderful todays, and a life full of love, family, and no regrets.